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First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What’s gonna kill you is the second part
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle
and fourth, you’re gonna think that you fixed yourself
fifth you see them out with someone else
This is one of the reasons why I don’t stay long on Facebook anymore. HAHA. I was scrolling on my news feed when I saw you. You’re tagged in some photos. Looks like a debut :) I looked at your pictures and you’re with girls. I guess you never changed. Haha. I clicked the owner of the photos and I was directed to her wall. I think you celebrated Valentine’s day with these girls. :)
I saw a stolen picture of you with this girl. You’re looking at her. You’re hands are blurry, so I think you’re playing with her or trying to hold her. She’s not smiling tho but you are. :) We used to do those stuffs. I wonder if you used to look at me like that too. The girl’s pretty. Well, not very pretty but definitely prettier than me. Fair complexion, long colored hair, red lipstick, curvy body. She really is prettier than me. The picture is edited and it says happy valentines day with all the hearts and stuff. Very mature. HAHAHAHA.
Then minutes later you changed your profile picture with her. I guess it’s official? :) I hit like and continued scrolling over.
You know what I felt? I’m not hurt, I felt hollow. You know what I told myself? Zee, you’ve been very stupid. Why did I kept a small hope? Why did I saved a spot for you in case you come back? Why did I become too kind and thought you could still be my friend? Why did I even believe your promises from the first place? You’re not going to be like you used to. Even a smallest part of it.
I guess this is what the my last dream of you means. Are you saying goodbye back there? :)
Then I felt something new. I wasn’t sad. Tho I didn’t feel happy for you too. haha. Instead I smiled, and told myself…
Zee, you’ve been hooked with him that long. Time to move on completely.
and sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little.
Election results ngayon sa school namin. At ngayon ko talaga narealize na hindi ko dapat tularan ang kung ano mang ugaling namamayani sa maduming pulitika.
EXPLANATION lang naman ang kailangan
Mang-iwan? Masakit kung kailangan mong iwanan ang isang taong mahal na mahal mo pero wala kang magagawa dahil kailangan. May dahilan ka na hinding hindi nila maiintidihan kaya minabuti nalang na itago yun at magmukhang masama ka sa pangin niya at sa iabng tao. Iiwan mo ang isang tao dahil sa tingin mo hindi na tama ang lahat. Yung dahilan mo kung bakit ka nang-iwan hindi sapat para alisin yung sakit na nararamdaman ng taong iniwanan mo. Pero hindi lahat ng nang-iiwan may sapat na dahilan. Minsan, ayaw na talaga nilang maging parte ng buhay mo.
Maiwanan? Yung araw araw tinatanong mo ang sarili mo kung abkit ka niya iniwan? Kung hindi kaba sapat, at yung mga nagawa mo para sa kanya. Yung iniwan ka niya ng walang dahilan o hindi sapat yung reason niya kaya gustong gusto mo siyang tanungin kung “BAKIT?”. Yung nagmumukha ka ng tanga sa mga tao na halos kaawaan ka nila kasi umaasa ka na isang araw babalikan ka niya kasi gusto mo pa siyang maging paret ng buhay mo. Yung araw araw naghihintay ka sa pagbabalik niya at umaasa ka ng paliwanag niya kung bakit ka niya iniwan. Magigigsing ka araw araw na kailangan mong tanggapin na wala na siya na hindi mo na siya makakausap. Yung araw araw tinatanong mo sarili mo kung kumusta na ba siya o okay lang ba siya. Pero minsan, isang dahilan ng pag iwan sayo ng isang tao ay dahil napagod na siya sayo.
Parehong masakit. Pero kailangan pa rin ng explanations ng lahat.
I dreamt about you last night. After a very very long time that I already forgot you were once a reason why I cry myself to sleep at night.
In my dream, I was in a room with my blockmates. It was like a seminar but you were there. I saw you. After a very very long time too. It’s ironic that I’ve never seen you in person since you gave me my birthday gift, yet I saw you in my dream. HAHA. And yes, you still look the same. Same hair, same kind of expression, the way you walk, the way you fix your hair. I wonder if you still look like that now. Then suddenly, I saw a crumpled small piece of paper on my desk. I took it, play with it but never took time to look at it. Then I saw you looking at me. I faced down and looked at the paper. I noticed that there are something written in it. So I opened it and read it. There I saw your handwriting. Telling me to come back, for us to be the same again. Start something new. You miss me, you love me. I was confused. Then suddenly, you were beside me. Litterally sitting beside me. You seemed so real! Haha. You said hi, and I said hi too. You asked me how I am and I said fine. I was still looking at the paper in my hand. I closed my fist. I realized that I am dreaming. I told myself, this is impossible. You’re not coming back, I’m only dreaming. Then I woke up.
I woke up. On my bed. With my friends, and it’s morning. I told myself, “See? I told you your dreaming.” But then I looked at my fists and its still closed. I opened my fists. I saw the paper.
I opened my eyes in the sound of my alarm clock. It’s 5:30 AM, my mom is waking me up. This is the reality. But still, I looked at my fists… And it’s still closed.